Someone called you too much, and you have been turning the volume down ever since. Even joy now checks the room. Mary’s offering in John 12 meets a room that also has opinions about the size of her love.
In John 12, Mary of Bethany anoints Jesus with costly perfume. Judas objects, but Jesus receives her act in relation to His coming burial. Her costly devotion fills the room with fragrance.
Mary's gift is particular to this moment; you don't need to spend beyond your means to imitate her love. Consider instead where fear of judgment has made your devotion hesitant. Sing, pray, give responsibly, or offer generous attention. Love can have a visible expression. Other people's discomfort doesn't automatically tell you that a sincere, wise offering was too large.
A question to sit with
How has fear of being judged made my love or gratitude smaller?
You can take this slowly.