You apologize before asking the question. Then for reaching across the table. Then because someone else has to move a clipboard. Your place in the room is taking an unreasonable amount of explaining.
In 2 Samuel 9, David seeks someone from Jonathan's family to whom he can show covenant kindness. Mephibosheth receives restored land and a continuing place at the king's table. His disability remains part of his life; it doesn't cancel the welcome.
The story gives a picture of kindness grounded in a promise. Read it alongside your belonging to God through Christ. You don't need to apologize for having needs or receiving care. A genuine wrong deserves an apology. A rightful place can simply be received with gratitude. There is room to sit down.
A question to sit with
Which apologies are expressions of fear rather than responsibility for something wrong?
You can take this slowly.